Trying.

There have been some times this past year that have for sure tested my patience and my ability to stay calm and not completely attack people like I typically would. Reality is...yes I am a brat and selfish, and I typically want things to go my way. BUT when I am trying to have things work for you as well, don't be a bitch and try to understand I am TRYING and you put effort forward as well.

I have let go of a few really close friends this year. It's been sad and hard but looking back worth it. Don't make me want to let go of you as well. I have realized that I must grow in order for me to get a long with others as well. I MUST CHANGE. I am so thankful for my husband who has helped me realize the qualities that I want to have in myself and in my children one day. I know that by being an example I will have a better chance of them turning out okay. I love my mom and sister for all the lessons and strengths they have given me. They showed me that being an independant woman is important and I pride myself in saying for majority of my life I have been pretty INDEPENDANT! "All the women who independent throw your hands up at me!" Thanks Beyonce. I am ready to have 2011 be one of the greatest years for me. I plan to learn a lot, study hard, try hard, and trust and believe in myself. Something I haven't done.

While we don't have plans for kids or a house for maybe 5 years plus I strongly believe Trent and I have started a strong life and family together here in Memphis. We plan on continuing it at our pace and enjoying life. I know I feel awkward at times cause one, we live in Memphis and are mormon, two we live in Memphis and don't have kids, and three we don't drink. That leaves not to many things to do here. So what do we do? We cuddle up on Friday nights and tickle each others backs and enjoy the fact that we have each other. I love Trent, especially has strengthened lately. He has been my back bone while I hated my job and came home each night and cried he just let me, and then eventually let me quit. Three days later I got a job. The LORD loves us. I have a testimony in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and without that I wonder where we might be now......

Thanks for my blessings and my wonderful dog and husband. I love them more then life itself. I'd die without them.

Update on Life

Well I made the blog private. I don't want randoms looking at my life anymore. Things are going well here.

I quit my job at J Hunt Home for a lot of reasons, mainly the boss and the direct supervisor was a shady person and wasn't getting along with her. So therefore I quit last week. Trent and I spent the weekend in Nashville for Thanksgiving with my aunt Nanette and her family and some close friends. It was a lot of fun and we got to have a home cooked meal and eat SHOE FLY PIE! My FAV! We also ran a 5k on Thanksgiving morning. Huge shock I know. We had a blast. We went shopping for black Friday and had a great time. Unfortunately due to unemployment we didn't get to really shop. But we did get a printer and we are way excited.

I just found out today after having my interview at 8:00 A.M. that I got a job at Independent Bank about 5 minutes from my house! I am SO HAPPY! It pays great and better yet I get paid weekly for a while so that will be nice to have instant money. Thank you OFFICETEAM! We have been very blessed. I will be working at this job for as long as they will keep me or until we are back on our feet and I decide to Substitute teach. I never knew how tough this move would be but again I am greatful for a very supportive husband and a great family and puppy who are with me every step of the way.

I am very excited to announce I was accepted to Memphis Teaching Fellows teaching middle school! I will start in June and the training is here in Memphis. If I am accepted to Teach For America I will take that position instead and then Trent will apply for a job at the institute in Atlanta so that we both can be together for those 6 weeks. I feel very good about being accepted but yet you never know.

We leave in 12 days to come home! I am SOOOO EXCITED! I really have not been this excited for a long time. I crave CAFE RIO and Zupas EVERY DAY! I need it in my life and stomach. We plan on seeing everyone that we can so it will be a crammed trip.

Thanks for keeping up on us, I'll be better about blogging!

Mom in town!

This past weekend was fabulous having my mom in town. She arrive Friday night at about 6:25 ish and we went to our house to get Trent and show her around. Of course Jack was SO excited to see grandma. Then we went to dinner at a BBQ place called Central. It was GREAT. We had a great time and then went home to get some rest. Saturday morning we woke up and got ready for some dunkin donuts. Me and Trent have been saving for a dryer so my mom went with us to find a good one. We then went and got donuts and COOLADAS which were amazing. My mom has a costco card and we don't so she took me to costco to get a few things while Trent set up the dryer. Then we stopped by Target to grab a few cleaning supplies and we were off to Beale Street. We went to Blue City Cafe it was delicious. We had a great time just talking and being downtown and looking around. I am so glad we went. Then we went home and rested for a bit, and stopped at Hobby Lobby for some stands for my house, and then went to Steak and Shake. SO YUMMY! Tom met us there for dinner so that was fun for her to meet our friend. We spent Sunday going to church and primary where I teach and my sweet mother cried when they sang to her because she was so sad she would be leaving. My kids definetly didn't understand what was going on. That night we rested and did laundry and my mom taught me to make steaks over the pan and oven. They were so yummy, I will definetly do that again. Monday I had to go to work, and then got off at 11:30 and me and mom went to lunch at Moe's Southwest Grill and then went to a few more stops. Then it was off to the airport. Hardest thing ever. Broke my heart. I will miss her and appreciate all the time we spent together her. I love you mom. See you soon!

What's NEW??

Bug bites, big freaking roaches, and hot hot heat.

I am still unemployed. FINALLY got an interview for Monday and I am going to apply to be a substitute teacher as well. :) Cross your fingers.

Most of the days me and Jack spend the day locked in our room away from BUGS and no where they can get me. I am a spaz.

I had a break down the other day because I saw a roach on my couch where I had been laying! UGH so I had to go find my new friend Rod who yes could have been an axe murderer but I really didn't care. :) He came and killed the bug and now we are still just in the process of being sure we are on the front end for any battle with the ROACH.

I miss Utah. but I love it here with my husband. We have gone to the temple twice and it has been incredible such a great spirit. Pray for us. and me getting a job. GO MEMPHIS

Memphis

So we are moving and I wanted to post where we'll be living in Memphis. We are in a town called East Memphis and its on the border of Germantown, where if you've seen Blindside the Touille's lived in that city.

We got a 3 bedroom townhouse and here it is!

and here is a picture of the front of our place,

NO MORE CONE!

I am headed to the vet to get Jack's cone and stitches out! wish us luck!

Broken heart

My heart broke yesterday, I wish I could explain the hurt I felt that day and how much I wanted to take all of Jack's pain away and put it on me. We were packing up the apartment and Trent was holding Jack and he jumped out of his 6' 4" body and fell on the ground landing wrong and popping his little leg out of socket. He just started yelping and was freaking out, and Trent just so controlled grabbed Jack and held him and massaged his leg and popped it back in place, while I was running around franticly trying to find keys or a number to vet to find out what to do. I was so stressed and crying and felt so bad and he was so calm. I hope I'll do better for when I am a mommy one day. Well Jack finally stopped screeching and just laid down and took it easy for the rest of the day. I of course just cried for about 2 hours feeling so bad for my baby and holding him as close as I could. I love him so much and he is such a joy in our lives that when this happened I felt so bad. He now can't walk on his back leg but is going to be going to the vet today to try to figure out what's wrong. Everyone please pray for my little buddy. He has to be in a crate today so that he can't move around so please pray he is okay and not to lonely. Sad day in our lives this week.

Update.

I wish I knew all the answers to why things happen and how I can make things happen. but the reality of life is we just go with the flow. Like right now. We got a buddy pass on a United Flight so I will be trying to get home Sunday and Monday. :) It will be fun for me to go with Trent and find our place though, but just changing everything seems to be a bit overwhelming! :) I stress easily though, go figure. I can't wait to spend MORE TIME WITH TRENT THOUGH! it will be a blast. We are so blessed though with friends who are coming to see us go and help with hotels and flights. Its been nice to have that support. :) so thanks guys. We love you! Wish us luck on this journey and keep Dennis in your prayers that he will feel better and get out of the hospital soon.

Life.

There has been some insane madness going on. Trent is scheduled to leave next Thursday to drive to Memphis with his dad and get settled with out items and hopefully get an apartment. Well last Friday Trent's dad Dennis, was put in the hospital for a kidney infection and possibly kidney stones. Its been crazy. We have thought every day that they were gonna let him out of the hospital and yet he has not been released. Today will make day 5 days in the hospital. Poor guy. So now our new plan is to have me drive to Memphis with Trent and stay with him and then fly back Monday. I hope that it all works out all right. I am ready for this move to get going and to just be in Memphis and get out life going. Its been so nice to have Trent though for all of his support and help he has given me. I love him so much and can't wait for this adventure with him. Everyone keep us in your prayers. Updates to come.

GRADUATED!

We finally did it! We are so happy and we got to walk together. So lucky. I am so excited that we finally finished. The last week I worked REALLY hard on a paper on abortion for my online class, and I got the grade back yesterday..... I got a B! I am so happy. Therefore I got a B in the class. So relieved. It is nice to say I am a graduate. Can't wait to see what kind of job I get eventually. I can't wait to move away to Tennessee. I get more excited every day! It will be nice to be in a different environment with my hunny and spend all our time together. I also will be quitting my job in just about a month, and while I LOVE my job, I am so ready to sleep in and do absolutely nothing! :) I just wanted to say thanks to everyone!

Weekend fun!

This weekend was really fun and relaxed for hubby and me!

Friday night we stayed home all night and did nothing. We just watched a movie and got pizza and just spent some much needed time together.

Then Saturday came! Our friend Alice called me a few weeks ago and asked if she could take pictures of me and Trent, of course I couldn't say no, so we went. We took about an hour and a half worth of pictures and it was a lot of fun. a reason to kiss and cuddle and be right next to each other. Here are a few of the pictures she took that I loved.

After that we went and grabbed lunch real fast and went out to Meliss's and Jim's to watch Annie. it was so fun. she is walking and is so adorable. I can't believe how big she is getting. She is also getting really good at dirty looks. I love it! Jack absolutely adores her. Attacks her all the time and just wants to lick her face...oh man. But it was fun to see them play. Trent and I had an intense game of Tetris which was luckily ended by Meliss and Jim coming home! :)

After that we went home and rested up and then we were off to a wedding for our good friends Don and Jen Willie. It was beautiful. It was at The Point where we got married so that was bitter sweet cause it made me miss my wedding so much. But they did a fabulous job. I liked her cake way more then mine! but mine did taste pretty good! :) After the wedding me and Trent went to the movie Green Zone which then led to MILLIONS of questions from me to Trent and poor guy you could tell was just done and did not want to answer anymore questions! haha but it made for good entertainment! :)

Sunday we woke up went to church and then went out to Trent's parents and Jack just had a bawl. he loves running around with the other puppies and just being a spaz. go figure. then we went home to a meeting then off to the park with some couples from our ward and played some good old football! :) I was trash talking the entire time which I totally found appropriate! haha I am sure others have another opinion. we had fun though then went home and got quickly to bed we were both so exhausted. but before we went to bed we decided just to check up on how much it is to rent a uhaul for their drive to Memphis. for 7 days and for enough space for our apartment it was $1400!!!! NO JOKE! we just about died. man quite the trip, but hopefully we will find a better deal.

Life.

When I look back to two years ago or 3 or 5, for that matter, I always wonder where I would have ended up had I not done everything I know I should have. I am so happy that this is where we are. Trent has made my life so great. The past two nights we have been just laughing and remembering why we fell in love. Don't take life to seriously. Enjoy the silly parts of life like when your wife won't go to sleep cause she is giggling like crazy or how you and your spouse fight, but your husband just ends up laughing because he says I am swinging at him like a cat.

Seriously though, I have now realized my best advice is don't take everything to seriously. Enjoy the little things in life. Do what makes you two happy and nothing else. We got Jack because WE wanted too. We had a lot of people tell us not to, but we love him and we are SO glad we did. He has been a blessing to us and just a sweet boy. Gives us laughs all the time and every time I mention moving his tail wags. I know I know, he probably has no idea what I am saying but still. I love my boys and I love my life. Can't wait to go to Memphis for this big experience.

Anyone have any advice on Memphis??? I'd appreciate it!

This last Thursday was my Accadian year end show. It was hard. I will miss those girls so much, but I am so proud of them and they were so awesome. I will miss coaching but ready for something else. I am officially done now and no more waking up early! That is exciting to me! haha.

Spring break is this week and I plan on staying up late and hanging out with my hubby! So excited.

Hope all is well with everyone.